Hard to say goodbye

Where do I start?

This whole blogging is new to me, but I've been encouraged by a good friend who says that blogging really helps so its worth a try!

Today I lost my best friend in the world, Julie, to cancer & at the moment I feel numb.

3 years ago I got a phone call from Julie telling me she had cancer & I think they had given her 6 months. She told me she was going to fight it, and boy did she! For 3 years she was so strong, never giving up, lived her life to the full, raising money for charity, travelling around the world and being an inspiration to anyone that had the pleasure of meeting her. She was always putting other people 1st before herself.

A month ago me, Julie and my friend Rachel organised a trip into London to have a meal and to see the show Hairspray, we had an amazing time and promised each other that we would do something like that every month, We never would have imagined that would have been our last day out.

Last Saturday we went down to Somerset to say goodbye. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I knew she was ill and I knew that one day she wouldn't be here anymore but it still came as a massive shock, Its something that you can never prepare yourself for! The time we spent with Julie on Saturday was precious, to hear Julie tell me that she loved me and that I was her best friend is something I will never forget, and I was so thankful to have that time with her to tell her I loved her, how proud I was of her for being so strong and that she was a true inspiration to me.

Julie found God, and her stories & God experiences were amazing and really helped me, a christian of 34 years, in my faith. She told me on Saturday that she wasn't scared and that she knew that Jesus was waiting for her. Such amazing faith! She knew that would comfort me ... still thinking about other people even then.

It still doesn't seem real that she's gone, she was only 35. But I know she is at peace and in heaven.

I love you Julie. I am so happy that you were in my life. I will miss you always X

So say goodbye 'cause you'll be leaving soon
I know it's hard, and I'll be missing you
I know its time to say goodbye

I know the road, has worn you down
You never broke, you always held your ground
But now its time to say goodbye

And I know we'll meet again, but I wish It'd never end
You don't mean to make me cry
But it's so hard to say goodbye

Say goodbye
Say goodbye

And though you're gone I remember now
The time we shared, you're words still ring out
You're never far, you're in my heart

And I know we'll meet again, but I wish It'd never end
You don't mean to make me cry
But it's so hard to say goodbye

Ohhh, Ohhh
Say goodbye
Say goodbye

And I know we'll meet again, but I wish It'd never end
You don't mean to make me cry
But it's so hard to say goodbye

Someday we'll meet again 'cause thats how the story ends
Its so hard to say goodbye
Say goodbye