While I work I've been listening to Air1 Radio - an American Christian radio station and a song came on that really touched me and made me think about the situation that I find myself in at the moment.
The song is called 'No Matter What' by Kerrie Roberts and it talks about no matter what we are going through we can still trust in God.
Wanting a baby is all I can think about at the moment, it means so much to me but what happens if it can't be? I know people have been asking "what will she do if it doesn't happen? How will she cope?"
I don't want to think about never having children, but how will I cope if it doesn't happen?...
...One thing is for sure, I know that I won't turn away from God, I will still believe that he has a plan for my life. My hands will still be lifted towards Him and my heart will still sing songs of worship.
I'm running back to your promises one more time
Lord that's all I can hold on to
I gotta say this has taken me by suprise
but nothing suprises You
Before a heartache can ever touch my life
It has to go through Your hands
And even though I keep asking why?
No matter what I'm gonna love you
I know You can find a way to keep me from the pain
But if not, I'll trust You, No matter what!
When I'm stuck and there's nothing else but myself
I'm just sitting in silence
There's no way I can make it without Your help
I won't even try it
I know You have your reasons for everything
so I will keep believing
Whatever I might be feeling, God, You are my hope
and You are my strength
Anything I don't have You can give it to me
But its OK if you don't, I'm not here for those things
The touch of Your love is enough on its own
No matter what I still love You
and I'm gonna need You.
