Endometriosis... (sounds like a spell from Harry Potter!) or Chocolate cysts! The consultant thought I'd feel better if I could give it a name! Well I'm not so sure, finding out that I have this "disease" that lowers my chance of getting pregnant, finding out that I need an operation that will put back the IVF again and finding out that I can't egg share which will cost me twice as much money near enough breaks me.
I feel like my heart is breaking and that no-one understands. I wake up longing for a baby, A baby is all I can think about all day, I have the names ready in my mind, the nursery is all picked out, the paint colour chosen, I go to bed praying for a miracle... my dream seems to be slipping further and further away.
I know people "feel for me" but they can't possibly understand how I feel.
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You're my only hope when my world is fading before my eyes, Jesus keep my heart alive. Sanctus Real
